Randommm.

Ok I said I will stop blogging but I failed. When I read my blog, I feel like blogging again. I shouldn't let it die there.
Here I am to update a short post. ;)

I've been so down lately again. Whatheck. -.- I feel like killing myself ya know. Why can't I be happy every single day? I mean after school. :/ You know what? I like having fun, messing around with my classmates. We just know each other for few months tho. I think a lot when I'm home. Overthinking kills dei.

Am I really important for you? This question keeps on running through my mind. I don't want you to tell me that I am but show it. Sometimes I feel hurt because of something. I can't tell how do I feel, I can't describe them in words but I just feel it. :/ Every girl is sensitive, they can feel and care about all the little things.

I feel like .. you don't like to chat with me?
Yea, maybe I'm always the one who makes our conversation hanging there, maybe you'll get bored...
When you don't reply but tweet on twitter..
When you say you're a lazy texter but you're replying messages when we're talking on phone..

Sometimes I feel insecure because I saw you like other girls' posts but you don't even like mine. so yeah..

I always want to tell you everything when we're talking on phone but I can't. I suck at expressing. :(
Sometimes I wish you could really care about me. :/
And I feel sorry because of thinking too much. I try not to care but I can't. Useless sia. I know I'm a failed girlfriend, super failed.