Randommm.

Ok I said I will stop blogging but I failed. When I read my blog, I feel like blogging again. I shouldn't let it die there.
Here I am to update a short post. ;)

I've been so down lately again. Whatheck. -.- I feel like killing myself ya know. Why can't I be happy every single day? I mean after school. :/ You know what? I like having fun, messing around with my classmates. We just know each other for few months tho. I think a lot when I'm home. Overthinking kills dei.

Am I really important for you? This question keeps on running through my mind. I don't want you to tell me that I am but show it. Sometimes I feel hurt because of something. I can't tell how do I feel, I can't describe them in words but I just feel it. :/ Every girl is sensitive, they can feel and care about all the little things.

I feel like .. you don't like to chat with me?
Yea, maybe I'm always the one who makes our conversation hanging there, maybe you'll get bored...
When you don't reply but tweet on twitter..
When you say you're a lazy texter but you're replying messages when we're talking on phone..

Sometimes I feel insecure because I saw you like other girls' posts but you don't even like mine. so yeah..

I always want to tell you everything when we're talking on phone but I can't. I suck at expressing. :(
Sometimes I wish you could really care about me. :/
And I feel sorry because of thinking too much. I try not to care but I can't. Useless sia. I know I'm a failed girlfriend, super failed.

7/4 :)

Hi everyone. I know it's been awhile since the last time I updated my blog. So sorreh. :P
I went out with veev, him and his friends last Saturday. To be honest, it's kinda awkward. I don't know why but just awkward. xD

At first, I chatted with veev at oldtown. We had a heart to heart conservation. I love her! x
Then, we went to find him at cinema. We watched 'The Hunger Games'. [ watched it like finally :) ]

7/10. Not bad. Damn ganjiong when watching! :D I purposely kept sticking with veev and see whether he would pull me to him or what so ever. HAHAH DAMN LAME. We didn't kiss that day. Hmm :p 

Then, we went Igentis. He talked to his friends. I talked to veev. It seemed like quite awkward. Heh.

After that he walked with his friends, I went shopping with veev. I wanted buy a lot of things so badly but ok I'm broke. -.- He held my waist and talked to his friends. I felt so bad to dump veev and let her walk alone although she said she's okay with it. UHH guilty sia. :/ Hopefully she won't mind. :) He and I kept wanting to take picture but shy. HAHAHA dumbo. 

He bought me a starbucks drink before leaving. :) Then I met up with Jing Hui. We went back together. :)

Hmm miss my stupid boy so much. :/ 

You never leave my mind. <3 I love you. 

有时候, 我比较任性, 比较容易吃醋, 比较容易没有安全感, 好像每天都PMS, 比较容易乱想, 可是我就是那么在乎你.或许你有时候很烦躁, 觉得很头痛, 可是你从来都没有离开过 :') 

我不敢说我们能一起走到永远, 不过我会爱你直到你不爱我的时候 <3 HEHEHE

Everything gets worse.

Hello readers. :) Guess there are only a few readers here since I changed my blog's link. Been using the link for 4 years I guess. But I deleted damn many posts, there should be 500 posts or even more than 500 if I'm not mistaken. Ok don't care. Btw I changed my blog's link for some certain reasons. :)

Hmm have no idea what to blog about. I'm actually freaking tired now. And still having a lot of bloody homework to be done.

Ain't in the mood lately. Relationship, studies etc.


Okay that's all . Stay tuned guys.

March holidays.

Hi readers. Do you enjoy your holiday? :) I need more holidays like seriously :( I still wanna hang out with all my girlfies wei. Time really flies. March holiday is ending and school is gonna reopen tomorrow which means both of us will be busy for studies again. *sighs 

Well, I was really lazy to update my blog until he asked me to. I know it's kinda late though. :B

I went out with him and another friend on tuesday. It seemed like quite long didn't hang out with him since the last outing we had. :/
At first, we're waiting for his friend to come so we walked alone. Then, we went to ' I LOVE YOO'. He's having his lunch while I was drinking my soya. :) As he's eating, I borrowed his phone. ( because he always shows off that his phone is much better than mine now :@ haha ) I checked his whatsapp. Then .................. HAHAHAHAHAHA heart broke into pieces sial. I just read some of the conversation which was with someone and saw the other contact names. I was like oh, okay, fine and being quiet there. He kept wondering why do I look so down and I told him like finally. :o He explained all the things to me but still I was down, down ttm. I kept being quiet there. He then looked like kinda angry.  I just asked him not to be angry but still the same. I didn't  know what to say. :( It was quite awkward all of sudden. He tam fan me at last. Hehhhhh.

After a while, his friend came. I was still quiet there. LOLOLOL. Then we went to cinema after eating. We bought 'John Carter' tickets. We walked around, lepak around then went to Shilin taiwan street snacks. They were eating and I was watching them. :P He kept sneezing and sneezing, poor thing. :/ I saw that he's finished using the tissues so I went to watson and bought him tissues secretly. :P ( but still told him at last. :D )

Then, we went to cinema since our movie was gonna start. We're so cold when we just stepped into the cinema. As usual, we hugged each other and blablabla I think you should have known what we usually do if you're a reader of my blog. :D Somehow I like when he's kissing my neck. <3 HEEEEEE.

Hmm John Carter was kinda boring. Rate it 6/10. Heh  Btw John Carter and Dejah Thoris were a huge romantic couple. :P

Woola! :)

We went to mc donalds after movie. I stopped him to eat ices because he's sick. He's stubborn like cow can. Ish ish. Was hoping that he would recover asap and worried about him. I would take care of him if I could. <3 And stupid you didn't infect me kayyy. :)

I took a bath after reaching home. Then my mum, ah yi and I went to relative's house at night. All my ah yi and my cousins were damn generous. They bought me some cakes and breads. DELICIOUS SHITTT OMG. My ah yi bought me and another two cousins a bracelet! :) It costs about RM500+. Awww appreciate it. <3
I couldn't stop sneezing because of the cold weather. I drank less water and ate a lot of fried food. :/
Many pimples pop out lately. Annoying betul. >:(

*cut my fringe again. it's not obvious tho.* :PPP

There are still a lot of things to be typed but I'm lazeyyyyyyyyyy, tiredddddddddddd. :/ STAY TUNED!

I was addicted to draw something, only few days. HAHAHA Now I think it's not that fun actually. heh

Hmmm, I really do love you and I've never thought you mean so much to me. 

I admit that I'm not a good girlfriend actually. I always think too much.

Nothing much. I wish I could be the only special one for you. 

I won't mind losing sleep having deep conversations with you. 

Nothing will ever come between us, cause I'll be standing right next to you. 

Maybe you think that I don't seem to trust you sometimes but nah, I trust you and love you all the time. 

Kbai.

Midnight.

I should blog about other things but I didn't. I typed until half then stopped.

Just, okay now I'm really down ttm*slaps self. Switch off my phone, ditch it. Listening to sad songs, thinking about this that, like an old lady. 

March holiday is ending. asdfghj. School life's gonna start again. Now, everything seems to annoy me. Everything seems impossible to happen. It doesn't exist.  ( whathell am I talking now? )

 I realize, you're like happier without me. Hah. :) 

One week holidays?

this photo was kinda old. ikr!? :p

Hello readers. School's been pretty busy nowadays. I was really stressed last week because of monthly test. Every subject was killing me. Most of my classmates are damn smart and hardworking can. They put so much effort on every paper even sivik and pjk. Well, of course I was one of them too but what I got isn't really what I wanted. But at least, it's been a lesson to me. 

Okay let's talk about holidays. I really do envy those who have a lot of plans like go on a trip, go shopping or do something special. How about me? I'm just rotting at home, I have nothing to do like seriously. Lying on sofa, watching drama. Lying on bed, reading novel until falling asleep. Sitting on chair, online. Staying at home, doing the household chores. So, that's all. Gosh I'm wasting my days ain't I? :(

I'm gonna hang out with him and another friend tomorrow. Like finally. Honestly I miss him badly. Hmm hopefully our problems will be solved? Just go with the flow. heh:b
I'll be staying at relative's house until Thursday then going back home after tuition. :)

I start missing my new soil. My holidays are boring without her. CAN YOU COME BACK ASAP!? :( She's the one who always listens to me complain this that. Pity her. :P She wrote lots of words on her question papers just to comfort me during exam. It's so touching can. :') She's a good friend. There's a conflict between us sometimes though. (especially about love. :P )

*love him to the max* <3

突然之间，我很想你
想起你陪我走过的许多日子，多美好
你在我身上留下的味道，永远无法被取代
我闭上眼睛去想念你，用力的的页面想念你，你却离号我好远
如果这一刻你在我面前，我一定会抱住你，用力的抱着，我是多么需要你。
(seafood's pattern again. tsk tsk. :p)



Sorry for giving you troubles.

kbai. :)

fear of losing you.

*shit .I started missing my long fringe. :/ *

Hello readers. I'm gonna blog about ... er ... random thingy? And it will be blogged in english and mandarin. :D [ bilingual huh? :b ]

Firstly, my monthly test starts on next Monday. pfft. I will be having biology, physics, chemistry and addmaths papers for the very first time. Sejarah, biology, bm and bc are the subjects which I hate the most. Screw it. Awww :/
I just can't wait for the coming holidays! It's only a week though. I was about to go a camp which is held at fgs dong zen temple for 4 days 3 nights but I think I'd better either stay at home or do other things during the holidays so I rejected. And I want to talk to him. so yeah. x) HAHAHA

Okay as you know, I seem to blog about him like everything. gosh. :P Don't blame me can. I'm used to it maybe. Hmmm.
When you chat with other girls, I die a little inside. And I know, they're much prettier and smarter than me, no doubt. That's why makes me insecure. You're always like nothing with them, really. Yes, I trust you but what if you see I always talk to many guys on twitter and facebook whenever you view my profile? I didn't mean to be jealous. Who likes? I seem to care too much, I know I shouldn't give a shit. But I just can't control myself. I can't stop you and I know you won't listen to me. I've promised that I won't tie you too tight. So yeah. I don't want you to think that I'm not understanding enough. Somehow I think that, do you really feel that padan muka having a girlfriend like me? :(
I'm afraid of losing you. You're mine ya know. 

我想念你一直和我撒娇, 虽然像小孩子, 可是很可爱. :( 
我想念我们走在一起, 两个有讲不完的话, 闹来闹去. :(
我想念我们一起过马路, 我不怕那些车, 因为我知道你会保护我. :(
我想念你一起来就会和我说早安的时候. :(
我想念你每天唱歌给我听. :(
还有很多很多.. 我真的很想你好不好 !? :P [ 有点鸡皮疙瘩了。 heh]


I see our pictures like everyday. I know you're gonna study for your spm and have less time to spend with me. :( Jiayou okay. Btw I'll try my best to improve your weakest subject then teach you okay. HAHAHA:P Don't underestimate me! heheheh. It's just form 4 though. Still hoping that it does work.
I love you more than I can say, more than you can feel. <3 I won't give up on us easily. So in another life, would you still be my boy? :) 

Okeh that's all. GOODBYE MY DEAR READERS.  :) 
Good luck for those who will be having exam next week! xoxo