Just let me die?

You don't love me anymore m, yeah?
Seriously do I have to ask you to celebrate my birthday with me? I thought you'd know?
Seriously do you have to ignore me like that? Who/what am I to you? Stranger or toy?
Seriously do you have to care about her so much? What about me? Someone that you can ditch whenever you want?
What now? Sending me mixed feelings? Playing my feelings?
Can you at least make me feel secure?
Why don't you understand? Yeah I know I should have left and let go of you but you know I can't. Yeah no matter how you make me get mad, how you break my heart, how you break your promise when you say you'll change, I'm still here for ya.

I'm stupid I know. Pfft

Alright. So you're leaving later. Must take care k. I'm not sure if things will turn out better after 3 months but I hope it will. Good luck and have fun. Be more muscular than bfr. don't lose weight already. Don't let anyone seduce you bye

Itstilllhurtswheneveriseeeverythingofyouandher.
Yesiamejealous&envious.I'mjealousthatyouaskedhertotakecarelikethat.I'mjealousthatyoubothcangoouttogether.doyouknowhowmucjithurtsme?noyoudontknow.maybeyouthinkthatithinktoomuch,youthinkiexaggerateandall.youjustdontubderstandcuzyoudontevencare.youdontknowhowitfeelslikewhenshe'sliketheimportanrpersonofyoursandimjustlikeastranger.youthinkyouknowbutyoudontknow.canyouatleastcareaboutmyfeelings?yeahyoukeepsayingthatshe'syourbuddybutitmakeseveryonefeelslikeyoubotharemorethanbuddies.
Nomatterhowmanytimesisay,itwontchangeiknow.youdontevencare.
Doihavetocryinfrontofyousoyoullknowthathowmuchithurtsme?